A BETTER WORD THEN THE WORD BETTER

SLEEP ISNT FOR ME

SLEEP ISNT A NEED
I CHASE IT BUT IT SLIPS AWAY

TRIED IT ALL , TRIED EVERYTHING
GIVING UP, ITS NOT WORTH THE CHASE

TIME IS RUNNING OUT
THE CLOCK IS TICKING 
I'VE LOST ALL CLOUT

I'VE LOST THE DRIVE 
THE GOAL 
THE REACH
I'VE LOST THE WORDS 
THE HEART
I'M CHEAP
I'M LOST
I'M DESOLATE
I'M CROSS
I'M MISSING
SOMETHING IS MISSING FROM ME
IT'S GONE
UNREPLACED
SOMETHING KNEW MUST GROW TO FILL THE SPACE
SOMETHING BETTER

A BETTER WORD THEN THE WORD BETTER

HERE IAM
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS
NOT VAIN 
JUS SAYING
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS

WHY HASNT IT WENT AWAY
I'VE TRIED
WORN HATS
WORN POLOS
BEEN POLITE
TRIED PILLS
TRIED LOTIONS
TRIED REACHING FOR PROMOTIONS

ALL CAPS 
BIG DEAL 
JUST LETTERS THAT ARE LARGER
DOES IT MAKE IT MORE DIFFICULT TO READ
ANY HARDER

CHEAP WAY TO GET A RHYME
BUT MY WRITING IS SO DESOLATE

THESE ARE DESOLATE TIMES.

NEED A WORLD THAT IS BETTER

NEED A BETTER WORD THAN THE WORD BETTER


NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ---SOMEONE WHO WILL UNDERSTAND
THERE IS NOBODY  
NOT CHILD 
WOMAN
OR MAN

Come back 2 me

It's been a while since we first met, 
                             It's been a while since our fingers intertwined
Where have you been?
 What happened that made you stay .....afar so long?

What was thier name?, Oh wait, am I wrong?
Did something change? Did something not taste the same? 
Can't stop the pain?
Don't u know prayers and pills don't exactly work the same.

You used to be a certain way, but now your gone----- too far gone.
Trying to drive yourself insane?
If they only knew how much you hiding and why


And now it's spilling over  and spreading like a virus or cure gone wrong.
Where have you been? Who has you hostage this time?
Wont you let go? U need to  let It go sometimes.
When was the last time , you were living naturally.....drug free.
Now I know where you've been.  in that haze   that foggy place.
Come back I say  , come back 2 me.

Now

It's that voice inside me that says I'm not good enough - I've done wrong -- Wasted so many years -- 

My talents long gone - 

Anger and regrets those from the past Still follow me-- still last.

 Grow up get over it, be better -- do something amazing -

Change lives.

Matter.  

 I used 2 be fatter (did that bring u laughter?) . 

Some days I feel better -

 Trust God , do I ever? 

What's love? Not just a word but an act--a gesture, a deed. Giving your time. 

Not money or gifts , tho those can still be.

My time is running short 

so NOW is the time . 

NOW is every second of every hour of every life.

Live in the NOW .

Be better, be the example of the why and the how. Be the NOW.

The Aftermath

In the

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Aftermath

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Nothing adds up

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The equations are many --The waiting is tough

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Official reports say so little-- Unnamed sources add to the riddle

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News papers report---While the websites retort

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The 

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Aftermath 

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plays out like a mystery --A game of clue, except this soul made history

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No matter the outcome, no matter the past

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I wish there were no

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Aftermath

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