Friday, July 16, 2021

Ordinary Man


I’m just an ordinary man
 a realization that I am
When I was young I said I can 
Be extraordinarily++ the man
Now I’m just a fan
Rooting for another 
Someone smarter and younger
Look my way U can
I’m just an ordinary man
Tryin to withstand 
The storms of life;
 the quicksand 
Had these dreams these fantasies 
As a boy and as a teen
Time somehow caught up to me 
Buried me and all those aspirations 
Lost in time ; how many lost creations?
I’m just this ordinary man 
To all that look my way 
Doing what I can 
To regenerate the past 
Again and again
An ordinary man 
Trying to withstand 
The aging process

Ordinary in every way
Extraordinary I wouldn’t say
Ordinary —a step better than lame





Sunday, July 11, 2021

MENTALME


WAKE UP GLOOMY  
TRY TO FIND THAT MOVIE 
THAT WILL TAKE IT ALL AWAY

WHEN THE CREDITS ROLL 
REGRET TAKES ITS TOLL
ANOTHER WASTED DAY

JUST A MINUTE AGO IT WAS BREAKFAST TIME
NOW ITS HALF PAST MIDNIGHT
WHERES THE NOVEL U WERE SUPPOSED 2 WRITE?
CHASING AFTER EXTERNAL STIMULI

SWITCHING GEARS INTO TEARS

DWELLING ON THAT ONE THING U CANT HAVE
DWELLING ON THE ONE THING THAT NEVER CAME BACK
DWELLING ON THAT ONE THING THAT U SHOULDNT DO
TALKING YOURSELF OFF THE LEDGE OF FOOLS
KNOWING BETTER STILL THINKING WORSE
MENTAL  U
— SEEM 2 BE CURSED

MENTAL THOUGHTS DOMINATING 
LOOKING FOR WAYS TO AVOID REALITY
WAYS TO HIDE WHAT THE OTHERS CANT SEE 
EVEN IF THEY DID ITS TOO HARD TO BELIEVE

HOW COME I LET YOU GET ME AGAIN? 
CONTROLLED BY A MIND THATS EASY TO BEND
NOW SIT FROZEN LIKE A FOSSIL IN TIME

UNPRODUCTIVE  I RELY 
ON EXTERNAL STIMULI 

2 GET ME THRU 
KEEP ME WITH U
2 STOP ME FROM 
THE SUCCUMB
OF MENTAL ME

WAKE UP WITH PLANS FOR THE DAY
MENTAL ME DONT PLAY THAT WAY 

EVER AFTER NEVER COMES 
HAPPINESS 2  DARKNESS SUCCUMBS
  A MOMENT FLEETING
WHEN UR EXPERIENCING
THE BUZZ WITHIN MENTAL ME
 
THIS IS HOW  MENTAL ME  LIVES 
DAYS WITHOUT A WORD TO ANOTHER
NEXT DAY WRITE A LETTER TO  THE WORLD

MENTAL CASE  MENTAL MIND 
MENTALITY MOSTLY MOCKING ME 
 ME MOCKING ME 
ME MOCKING ME