Tuesday, August 22, 2017

August Clouds

8/22
AUGUST CLOUDS


What can you say in August to the boy who’s father left us?  
It’s all part of a master plan? 
The God of this world is really a man?  
See the look upon his face, his steady nervous pace, 
the hope -just a trace -the clouds are falling into place. 
Can you see them? The clouds are caving in. CAVING IN.  
Yes the weather seems good today but the clouds will have the final say.  For when the forecast is at hand -"It’s all part of the master plan," (says the weatherman.)
                                 Last August the clouds seemed so far away.  The weatherman predicted clear skies today! Then reminded you that even a little bit of rain can't drown out the pain.  (Wait, what’s he trying to say?)


August means the end of summer fun -when you are young.  
A new cycle begins. Some will lose and some will win.  
For the boy all cycles have ended.  He is shattered, unraveled
 -in a whirlwind you can’t ever know; unless you've been there before. 
Forecast calls for tornadoes tomorrow. Reminding you of the time you have and how it's borrowed.  
Yes tornadoes can bring you down to the ground -yet they’re gone in a flash.  But these clouds will hover and cast (their grip on you).


“We don’t need no clouds, no.”  Somebody famous once sang.(who?)  Then the clouds came calling for him.  Now all we hear are his echos and the boy does  too (within)


The echo of his fathers’ footsteps, the echo of the clearing of his throat, every echo of every sound his father ever made, he knows.  

They told him to rely on the most high because he controls the clouds.(Now repeat it out loud)  "He controls the clouds." 
It is all part of a master plan.  
Makes no sense to the boy this August. 
He doesn't feel like the rest of us.
We could see the clouds hovering above but we couldn't see the boy. For he stood in the midst --of the clouds grips. 

This was thier separation.
And his fathers’ preparation.
August Clouds here to pull somebody in.
The boy knows… it isn’t him.

Let the healing begin.

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Destination: 7th Floor

Step inside. 
The next world is waiting
Destination, 7th floor.

Reaching out, reaching up
In slow motion 
being elevated


Softly he sang:

Take me 2 the 7th floor
A love is waiting
that  I've never known before

Take me 2 the 7th floor 
 The aftershow

His smile curved wide
 but just 2 one side
As he began flowing
2 the next paradigm


Softly he sang:

Take me 2 the 7th floor, I've given all I can. There is no more
Take me 2 the 7th floor,  A new world awaits me

A new world 2 explore

His breathing slowing
A  peaceful wind blowing
A bright light in sight
glowing
glowing




Softly he whispered

Take me 2 the 7th floor, Where we dance as spirits, 
Our flesh no more

Take me 2 the 7th floor, Another song is playing
 I can hear the chords


 In Each beat, Each string, Each horn
 Music Divine

I am Reborn

on 
The 7th floor



Monday, January 23, 2017

A BETTER WORD THEN THE WORD BETTER

SLEEP ISNT FOR ME
SLEEP ISNT A NEED
I CHASE IT BUT IT SLIPS AWAY

TRIED IT ALL , TRIED EVERYTHING
GIVING UP, ITS NOT WORTH THE CHASE

TIME IS RUNNING OUT
THE CLOCK IS TICKING 
I'VE LOST ALL CLOUT

I'VE LOST THE DRIVE 
THE GOAL 
THE REACH
I'VE LOST THE WORDS 
THE HEART
I'M CHEAP
I'M LOST
I'M DESOLATE
I'M CROSS
I'M MISSING
SOMETHING IS MISSING FROM ME
IT'S GONE
UNREPLACED
SOMETHING KNEW MUST GROW TO FILL THE SPACE
SOMETHING BETTER

A BETTER WORD THEN THE WORD BETTER

HERE IAM
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS
NOT VAIN 
JUS SAYING
NOT LIKE THE OTHERS

WHY HASNT IT WENT AWAY
I'VE TRIED
WORN HATS
WORN POLOS
BEEN POLITE
TRIED PILLS
TRIED LOTIONS
TRIED REACHING FOR PROMOTIONS

ALL CAPS 
BIG DEAL 
JUST LETTERS THAT ARE LARGER
DOES IT MAKE IT MORE DIFFICULT TO READ
ANY HARDER

CHEAP WAY TO GET A RHYME
BUT MY WRITING IS SO DESOLATE

THESE ARE DESOLATE TIMES.

NEED A WORLD THAT IS BETTER

NEED A BETTER WORD THAN THE WORD BETTER


NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ---SOMEONE WHO WILL UNDERSTAND
THERE IS NOBODY  
NOT CHILD 
WOMAN
OR MAN

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Come back 2 me

It's been a while since we first met, 
                             It's been a while since our fingers intertwined
Where have you been?
 What happened that made you stay .....afar so long?

What was thier name?, Oh wait, am I wrong?
Did something change? Did something not taste the same? 
Can't stop the pain?
Don't u know prayers and pills don't exactly work the same.

You used to be a certain way, but now your gone----- too far gone.
Trying to drive yourself insane?
If they only knew how much you hiding and why


And now it's spilling over  and spreading like a virus or cure gone wrong.
Where have you been? Who has you hostage this time?
Wont you let go? U need to  let It go sometimes.
When was the last time , you were living naturally.....drug free.
Now I know where you've been.  in that haze   that foggy place.
Come back I say  , come back 2 me.



Now



It's that voice inside me that says I'm not good enough - I've done wrong -- Wasted so many years -- 
My talents long gone - 

Anger and regrets those from the past Still follow me-- still last.

 Grow up get over it, be better -- do something amazing -
Change lives.
Matter.  
 I used 2 be fatter (did that bring u laughter?) . 

Some days I feel better -
 Trust God , do I ever? 
What's love? Not just a word but an act--a gesture, a deed. Giving your time. 
Not money or gifts , tho those can still be.
My time is running short 
so NOW is the time . 
NOW is every second of every hour of every life.
Live in the NOW .
Be better, be the example of the why and the how. Be the NOW.

The Aftermath

In the
O(+>
Aftermath
O(+>
Nothing adds up
O(+>
The equations are many --The waiting is tough
O(+>
Official reports say so little-- Unnamed sources add to the riddle
O(+>
News papers report---While the websites retort
O(+>
The 
O(+>
Aftermath 
O(+>
plays out like a mystery --A game of clue, except this soul made history
O(+>
No matter the outcome, no matter the past
O(+>
I wish there were no
O(+>
Aftermath
😢

Monday, June 6, 2016

Eye was not alone

Far from alone 
All my children with me

Thousands marched around 
Others danced or swooned 
Makin papa proud
In that elevator -- it was no empty room 

The beautiful ones smiled 
While Anastesia held her hands beneath my head 

We Raved unto the joy fantastic
Hand in hand we Walked in Sand

With starfish and coffe playing mellow
Blue limousine was there all colored in Yellow

Took me 2 graffiti bridge and saw that reason 2 believe 
Felt so beautiful love and blessed

Six was blasting but was overtaken by 7
Perfect harmonies dreamin about u 
Whispering Eye wish u heaven 

So take heart and smile my Fams
4 I was far from  alone 
Love 2the 9s held my left hand 
While beautiful strange held my right

In peace I punched that higher floor 
This was not music this was a trip

1000 hugs and kisses embraced my soul
Into the light

Now all is alright.